I guess I should update. We haven’t had sex (yet) but he has finally loosened up. He is more playful, and sexually aggressive. It took him a long time but I feel like all he needed was a forceful push.
Just watched Game of Thrones with my boyfriend, in his living room. We cuddled under the blanket as he rubbed my clit to orgasm.
IT DOESNT END THERE THOUGH.
I suck him off, swallow and then…
THE ALLSTAR GOES BACK for round two.
Then the bf’s roommate comes out and starts doing dishes but loved boy doesn’t stop. I had to stifle the best orgasm of my mortal life all because his roommate decided to do dishes for the first time since they moved in together…
You know. Sometimes I feel like I would get more sexual attention from a brick wall. Honestly. How many times can I get shot down before it is enough.
21 months. No sex. Scattered blow jobs. Nothing for me.
This weekend he offered, but only after I retorted to him being hungry with a snide, sassy remark. I shot him down when he moved. There was annoyance in his voice when he said “Spread ‘em” and his eyes went blank so I said no. It has to be something he wants to do. But he doesn’t want to… Ever.
Early last summer things were going hot and heavy then he asked if I “was ready”. Not once have I ever heard that question, not once has that question been asked of me so I hesitated for a moment. He stopped, rolled off, and went home an hour later.
Late last summer we were laying in his bed while his parents were gone. I was learning his dick - I was new with a foreskin. I jerked him off and helped clean him up. So he started to reciprocate, gently rubbing, playing with my clit, sliding a finger or two inside me; but he stops. I can’t recall if there was any reason but I remember crushing disappointment as he fell asleep.
I can count the number of our mutual sexual encounters on one hand and it hurts me. I have talked to him about this and our intimacy, identifying where my problems were before and nothing changes.
Is there something I don’t know? Am I just not sexually desirable for him?
I am just tired of being shot down and not having a reason. There is never an excuse. Sex just never happens.